Saturday, May 21, 2016

Faith in Myself, because it's Needed

Having faith in my Lord and Father in Heaven are much easier then having faith in myself.  As it is for many people I'm sure. Tonight was a struggle, as I sat at the couch trying to think of what to teach and say to the young women that I will be teaching tomorrow. *I was recently called as the Second Counselor in Young Women's* The emotions of not seeming fit for such a leadership position began to take over and consume my thoughts. How could I teach these girls to be wondrous and strong daughters of God when I struggle myself in so many ways.

This resulted in me asking my dear husband for a blessing. A blessing where the Lord let me know that not only did I need to have faith in Him, but I needed to display faith in myself. What? You mean, I have to think of myself as a leader? A teacher? An example? Oh boy. That's one of the hardest things I think I've ever been told in a blessing. Nonetheless, 'I will go and do the things which the Lord hath commanded me'. But, he's right. How can I teach these spiritual teachings without faith in myself that I can? Answer. I simply cannot. I must look inside myself and find the qualities that the Lord sees in me. To seek my divine nature. My integrity. My faith. For I believe, that if I do these things and more, I will see miracles and many blessings in my calling. And for that, I am grateful. I hope that I can one day write again and say with all honesty that I have found Faith in Myself.