Having faith in my Lord and Father in Heaven are much easier then having faith in myself. As it is for many people I'm sure. Tonight was a struggle, as I sat at the couch trying to think of what to teach and say to the young women that I will be teaching tomorrow. *I was recently called as the Second Counselor in Young Women's* The emotions of not seeming fit for such a leadership position began to take over and consume my thoughts. How could I teach these girls to be wondrous and strong daughters of God when I struggle myself in so many ways.
This resulted in me asking my dear husband for a blessing. A blessing where the Lord let me know that not only did I need to have faith in Him, but I needed to display faith in myself. What? You mean, I have to think of myself as a leader? A teacher? An example? Oh boy. That's one of the hardest things I think I've ever been told in a blessing. Nonetheless, 'I will go and do the things which the Lord hath commanded me'. But, he's right. How can I teach these spiritual teachings without faith in myself that I can? Answer. I simply cannot. I must look inside myself and find the qualities that the Lord sees in me. To seek my divine nature. My integrity. My faith. For I believe, that if I do these things and more, I will see miracles and many blessings in my calling. And for that, I am grateful. I hope that I can one day write again and say with all honesty that I have found Faith in Myself.